Rebuilding a Foundation
During this worldwide pandemic we all are facing challenges during quarantine. Like staying busy, keeping your mind occupied, discovering who you really are now that we have more time with ourselves. So, I decided to take advantage of this by truly going inside myself and finding out what makes me tick and how can I reengineer the things I don’t like about myself and securing my insecurities from a mindful perspective. To do this wasn’t an easy task, this would require me to let go of my ego and prepare myself for truth and honesty. To be totally naked and strip away who I think I am in contrast to who I truly am. Which I notice is a big difference and as we grow that gap stretches farther and farther to the point we forget who really are at the core. Our values, our desires, our perspectives and worldviews.
To go deep within yourself requires a ocean of patience, it’s like getting to know your self all over again and reintroducing you to you and the world once again, which can be a hard process. I feel there is a shift happening in the universe, within the earth and it was completely natural and organic to change with the tides that I felt taking place. From politics to religion to peoples collective awakening, consciously. These things all fell in line with what I was feeling and going through simultaneously.
The first signs of this new revelations began when I was grabbing my favorite aloe Vera drink at a convenient store up the street from hemp trimming job. As I was standing in line, a monk walks through the door wearing a bright Sunkist orange gown shinning radiantly from the suns rays reflecting off his clean bald head as if he was some divine force meant for me and only me to see as some kind of heaven sent sign. What makes this event even more peculiar is there are no monks in my town, this is the first for me even witnessing a real life monk in my presence let alone ever hearing about them being out and about, its a very rare thing to see in a city like Nashville where I grew up my whole life, so first time for everything right?
So as if that experience wasn’t weird enough wait to you hear what happens next. So, I leave the gas station and there’s a van parked at the gas pump directly in front of me, as I get into the car and shut my door and start the engine I look ahead and the license plates read “Ye Born Again”. If you’re just getting to know me then you will find out that I’m a true believer in the fact the universe sends us messages through various shapes and forms of everyday life but it’s up to us to read them with the correct lenses. With these signs you can use them as tools or beacons to guide you through life to kind of your second intuition sort of speak on where your headed or should be headed. So back to the license plates reading the phrase “Ye Born Again” was a true revelation to me because a week in prior I was giving amazing opportunity to go to Hawaii and shoot a music video which transformed me in many ways along the way during my weird experience there which I’ll explain in my next blog post story, also with me ironically losing my passport and ID in Honolulu as if it was some significant sign from the gods metaphorically telling me to lose my old self and become a new me, meaning start over here’s a new beginning and a new chapter in my life which internally felt before leaving the main lands.
This revelation of the world , the universe , my spirit feeling the need to shed my old self and transform in to a new and more enlighten being was quite the experience because it took me to accept it was time to change regardless of who liked it, my friends, my kids, my fiancé ,or anybody. It wasn't about them at this point it was about solely me spiritually evolving into my own self leaving behind the things that longer serve me or made me feel good.
This spiritual awakening was like seeing with fresh eyes again and seeing the world from a whole new perspective that didn't require validation from no one just me and my creator. through this transformation from cocoon to butterfly I realize there's nothing wrong with embracing your true self. This is called strength, leading with faith in yourself to become the ultimate you. To hold yourself accountable to true to yourself and be honest, in return you will become the ultimate you and be way more secure with yourself and others around you , heck maybe inspire your friends or family to make the leap of rebuilding the foundation of self.